Right now.

by Amelia Kanan

The Good: I’m alive. My car still works. It’s raining. People love me. I have shelter. Brunswick Stew. Hot coffee. I think I know what the signs are telling me.

The Bad: I haven’t worked in two days therefore I can’t put gas in my car. I haven’t worked out since Tuesday and don’t have any motivation to do so. The Halloween candy in the cupboard is mocking me. My replacement license might not come in time. I have a chest cold.

The Ugly: All I want to do is sleep, which is a symptom of my depression creeping in. I’m isolating myself. I had to pay a ridiculous amount of my parents money for something that could’ve been avoided had I not been such a neglectful person. I’m scared I’m always going to be this way.

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